The Bungee Cord. 6-30-25
Hello,
Last week I called our church publishing house to order some things for the church that I am preaching at. After passing through the fake person who answered the phone, a friendly real person’s voice spoke to me. “Good morning, my name is Anna. How can I help you?”
I paused a moment in a bit of confusion. Did I hear rightly? Anna? It is not that the connection was fuzzy, as a matter of fact it was crystal clear. Anna? The confusion was that the name did not match the voice, as the voice was clearly a male voice. I assumed my hearing must have been wrong, and I proceeded with my order which was done with extreme politeness and efficiency.
As it happened, I needed to call back again a few moments later, and once again after receiving the bland reception from the electronic answerer, a real person picked up the phone who said, “Good morning, my name is Anna. How can I help you?” This time, I knew that I had heard correctly, “Anna”. I told Anna that I had just spoken with her, and she delightfully recalled our conversation when I told her my name. And just as the first time, Anna politely, kindly and efficiently took care of my order.
When I got off the phone after my second call, I found myself a little bit off balance, figuratively. Although other people may encounter this sort of audio surprise with some regularity, this was the first time that this has happened to me. Being a senior citizen, I have lived through the changes of our times, and when I have encountered a change, I have found myself dealing with a bit of vertigo.
It took me a few moments to regain my sense of balance, and when I had done so, I thought to myself, “I can’t imagine the inner conflict that person has had to deal with.” I can’t imagine how hard it was to grow up with that turmoil in one’s soul. The confusion and lostness one must feel. The overwhelming mystery of what life was going to be like.
As I think about these things, it seems to me that all this inner turmoil and struggle gets hidden from our eyes behind a categorical name, transgender. I have to admit with a degree of self-disappointment, that until I spoke to Anna the mention of “transgender” brought my confusion into the spotlight to the point that its glare made it hard for me to see the turmoil and struggle in the other’s life.
I know that encountering someone who is dealing with gender identity is one of those things that creates a balance issue for a lot of people, if not most, and for some it knocks them off their feet. But the thing that steadies my wobbling is when I consider the person that the world leaves un-named is someone’s child, is someone’s sibling, is someone’s beloved, and suddenly the turmoil in that person’s life shine brighter than my confusion.
The grace that we discover in Jesus Christ is that Almighty God is likewise steadied. Instead of seeing humans as un-named gatherings of cosmic dust, God looks upon us and sees someone’s child, someone’s beloved…..God’s child….God’s beloved….and the turmoil in our hearts shines with such blinding pain in the eyes of God that God can see nothing else, leading God to hold nothing back to address our pain, not even to hold back his very Son who smothered the flames of turmoil on the cross and left them behind in the grave when he arose.
It may not be that I deal with the turmoil of transgender, but I have plenty of turmoil in my life. I deal with the rumbling of depression. I am constantly reminded of my mortality as a cancer survivor. I could list more….we all could list more. That is why I am eternally grateful that God, for reasons that bear no understandable reason, is moved by the turmoil in my life, and is at work through Jesus to bring peace to my heart, and God will not stop until it is accomplished. And know this, it is also true that God is likewise transfixed on the turmoil in your life and is unstoppably at work to bring peace to your heart…and Anna’s, too.
Have a great week.
God’s grace and peace, (ggap)
Pastor Jerry Nuernberger